Hello SOTGC community,
I was recently diagnosed with a back injury and learned that I would have to completely alter my active lifestyle for a couple of months. As you can imagine, I felt pretty bummed out about it and worried a great deal about what I would do without being able to work out everyday. Would I go crazy, be bored, gain weight? I tried to calculate ways I could get around this so as not to disrupt the life that I was used to living. Once I realized how serious my doctor was about resting and healing, I decided I would focus on a new perspective and commit myself to my own self-care.
I immediately accepted that this injury was offering me a lesson that I really needed to tune into. I had sprained my back a few months ago and refused to listen and rest. I was convinced I was fine and could continue my normal activities. A couple of months after that I began experiencing shooting pain from my hip down the front of my leg. For about 5 weeks I chose to work through it, convincing myself that it would heal on its own without the care of a doctor. When the pain just wouldn’t subside, I finally went to a doctor and learned that I had now seriously injured myself and would have to now spend two months recovering. Like everything else in my life, I muscle my way through, refusing to give myself a break. The universe had finally delivered me a message I would listen to, and I was hearing it loud and clear.
I began to embrace the concept of listening to my inner voice and allowing myself space to slow down and even stop moving. I understood that I now had an opportunity to attend to the parts of me that I usually neglect. I became excited about reading, cooking, long walks on the beach, more playtime with my son, guitar lessons, and moments of simply being. I could feel the self-induced pressure begin to lift as I realized that I wasn’t going to need to rush around for a while, keeping schedules and getting to appointments. This was an amazing opportunity to reconnect with myself in a new and unique way. This was a space being offered to me to listen, allow, and learn.
As some more time went by and I began to heal, I watched as new opportunities were now being brought my way. My doctor was continuing to restrict my normal activities, but had approved me for Pilates, something I had never before tried. At first I responded with something like, “I don’t do Pilates,” which quickly transformed into “I get to try Pilates.” I was being given a reason to try something new, something that I had always been curious about but had not ever had the time to actually attempt. Now I was excited and extremely grateful for the space I now found myself in.
We hear things all the time like everything happens for a reason, if it weren’t for something happening then this other thing would not have happened, and there is always a silver lining. Many times, these cliché’s are hard to see and can feel annoying. Everything we see though truly does come down to us seeing things the way we want to. By shifting our perspective, we are able to turn tragedy into opportunity and find ways to grow, learn, and discover. I never thought I would say this, but my back injury has been a gift and I am relishing in all the possibilities that will come of it.