As I watch my little baby grow into this beautiful little boy, I can’t help but sit back and wonder about how quickly time passes, asking myself if I am experiencing all there is to experience in being a mom. Like many of you, I am juggling quite a few things and working very hard to give myself to it all. I focus on being a mother who is present and aware, as I believe this presence allows my little guy to truly be who he is meant to be. I focus on being an authentic writer, as I believe that I have a message that I am meant to share with the world. I focus on being a friend who is supportive and available, as it is my friendships that have sustained me throughout my life.
I was watching my son play the other day with his friends from school, completely apart from me and doing his own thing. I had a very clear realization that he was no longer a baby and in fact, was quite grown up. I started to think back to all the stages of his life, the big events, small moments, and everyday life experiences. In that moment, I felt so grateful for having been able to be there with him through these times. In that instance, I truly understood the value of time and being present, and how I would have these moments forever in my heart, but would never get them back in real time as we know it.
And so I have sat back to truly think about being a mom and all th
at it entails and offers. I feel absolute joy around being a mom, fulfillment, and peace. I have grown and will continue to grow. I am challenged, humbled, and inspired. I am forced to be creative and go beyond any falsely believed walls that define me. I give of myself each and every day, never expecting anything in return, yet completely overflowing with love and joy. I may be juggling many things and miss a few moments, but that deep connection through presence allows me to know that I truly am, without a doubt, fully experiencing being a mom.