Hello SOTGC community,
Tonight as my little guy and I were cuddled up on the couch watching a movie, he fell asleep in my arms. As I sat there and held him, I couldn’t help but get lost in all the moments that have gone by. I couldn’t help but think about how much fewer and far between these moments are getting now that he is growing older. I couldn’t help but sit there for hours, letting him sleep with me, staring at his peaceful face and cherishing every single breath he took.
It is amazing to me how quickly the time goes by as we watch our little babies grow up. It seems that one minute they are in our arms almost every second of the day and the next they are wiggling free, venturing out into the world on their own. I know for me, I absolutely love watching my son grow and I encourage him along the way. I enjoy seeing him gain his independence, watching him take risks, and slowly but surely become his own unique person in this universe. It fills my heart with joy when I watch the pride on my son’s face when he realizes he can do something new all by himself. Especially when he was convinced there was no way he could possibly do it without me. I am excited for him to journey down his path and am honored to so closely witness the life that he chooses to live.
As much as I look forward to watching him grow, there are definitely certain things that I wish I could somehow hold onto and make last forever. There will be many things that he will outgrow and no longer want or need from me. My heart breaks a little bit each time I attempt to carry him and realize he is getting closer and closer to no longer fitting in my arms and certainly getting way to heavy. Even though I laugh when he wriggles out of my arms to get away from a hug or says something like no more kisses mom, a little piece of me knows how much I will one day miss being able to smother him with love, covering him with hugs and kisses.
And so as I sat there, content and at peace staring at my son asleep in my arms, I knew that these are the moments to cherish. These simple moments that we might otherwise take for granted are moments that we need to take mental pictures of in our minds, in our hearts. These are the memories that will warm our hearts in fifty years, keeping our children our little babies, even when they are grown adults living their own independent lives. As I write this, I am filled with emotion, knowing that time will pass, my son will grow, and little by little I will have to let him go, but I can remember to make these moments count and take the time to experience them fully, for these are the moments that will live forever.
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